“Where did he learn that?” she asked. Her voice had lowered, though it wasn’t gentle.
“He wanted to learn,” I said. “So I taught him.”
“I made you something,” he said.
He held up a drawing: our family standing on the front porch. My mother was in the upstairs window, surrounded by flower boxes.
“I didn’t know what kind of flowers you liked, so I drew all of them.”
“We don’t yell here,” he added. “Daddy says yelling makes the house forget how to breathe…”
Her jaw tightened. She blinked, but said nothing.
Later, we sat at the kitchen table. My mother barely touched her cup.
“This could’ve been different,” she said. “You could have been someone, something. You could have been great, Jonathan.”
“I am someone, Mom,” I said. “I just stopped performing for you, for the one person who never clapped for me.”
“My father said the same thing when I brought your father home, you know?” she said. “He said I was throwing everything away. And when he left me…”
She swallowed hard before speaking again.
“I built a life you couldn’t question, Jonathan. I thought if everything was flawless, no one would leave. Not like he did. I thought control meant safety.”
“You lost us anyway,” I said, keeping my gaze on her. “And that was because you didn’t give us any choice.”
She flinched, barely. But she didn’t deny it. For the first time in my life, my mother looked at me without trying to fix something. Anna, who had said almost nothing during the visit, finally looked across the table.
“Jonathan chose us. But we’re not a punishment. And you don’t have to be the villain, Margot. Not unless you keep acting like one.”
My mother didn’t answer. She left half an hour later. There was no hug, no apology.
That night, I found an envelope under the doormat. Inside was a music store gift card, and tucked behind it was a small folded note in my mother’s precise, slanted handwriting.
“For Aaron. Let him play because he wants to.”
I stood in the doorway for a long time, the note resting in my palm. For the first time in years, I didn’t feel like something was broken. It wasn’t closure, not yet.
But maybe it was something better. Maybe it was the beginning of something new.