“Bad weekends don’t last three nights,” I told him. “You’re not going back.”
What followed wasn’t tidy. Courts never are. His father arrived to the first hearing with whiskey on his breath and indignation on his sleeve, a finger jabbing the air as if he could puncture facts into different shapes. The stepmother checked her phone between eye rolls. Ethan’s voice shook when he described strangers in his kitchen at 2 a.m., doors he couldn’t close, names he’d learned not to ask. The judge’s mouth thinned. Temporary guardianship. Six months later, permanent.
Sometimes he slipped and called me “Mom” in the kitchen, the word small and startled like it had jumped the fence. He’d blush. I’d sip my tea like it was nothing and feel my heart open a new room.
Senior spring found him everywhere at once: science competitions, late-night emails from professors who usually ignored undergraduates, envelopes with crests and too much glossy paper. Acceptance. Full scholarship. Astrophysics. I cried in the produce aisle the day the big one came through, right there between the Romaine and the radishes, while a stranger patted my arm and said, “Good news?” I nodded, unable to explain that it felt like the universe was finally returning a favor. Continue reading…