That night, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. About how my mother had shown up every year, no matter what else was happening in her life. About how she never waited until conditions were perfect.
By morning, I knew my answer.
“This is how it started for me,” Eli said softly. “Just one meal.”
We delivered the food together, knocking on doors, exchanging brief smiles and thank-yous. There were no speeches. No expectations. Just shared moments that felt, in their own way, sacred.
When Christmas Eve arrived, I woke early, my chest tight with anticipation and nerves. I spent the morning cooking, just as my mother used to. This time, though, I wasn’t alone.
Eli arrived mid-afternoon, carrying groceries and wearing an apron he’d borrowed from the kitchen program. We worked in comfortable silence, moving around each other with ease.
For a moment, grief surged unexpectedly, sharp and sudden. I had to step away, gripping the counter until my breathing steadied.
Eli didn’t say anything. He didn’t need to. He simply stood nearby, present.
That evening, we packed several meals. More than one. More than two. Enough to make a small difference, even if only for one night.
As we drove, the streets glowed with holiday lights. Familiar songs drifted from passing cars. Everything looked the same as it always had. And yet, everything felt different.
Instead, a small sign hung near the entrance, listing resources and a message written in simple letters: You matter.
I swallowed hard.
We handed out meals, exchanging brief words, gentle smiles. Some people accepted the food with disbelief. Others with quiet gratitude. Each interaction reminded me of my mother’s voice, steady and kind.
On the drive home, Eli spoke softly. “She’d be proud of you.”
I shook my head. “I’m just doing what she taught me.”
“That’s how it works,” he said. “The lessons keep going.”
Later that night, we sat on my couch, a familiar movie playing in the background. Neither of us paid much attention to it. Outside, snow began to fall, soft and unhurried. Continue reading…