I was seventy-three years old when the truth finally settled over me like a cold, heavy blanket: I was going to die alone. It wasn’t the illness that scared me — the doctors had been honest from the start. My heart was failing, my lungs were weakening, and my bones felt like they were made of thin, brittle glass.
Death didn’t frighten me; I had seen enough of it overseas, in deserts and cities whose names my children never bothered to learn. What terrified me was something far quieter, far crueler: Silence.
Three children I had raised by myself after their mother passed.
Three lives I had poured everything into — birthdays, scraped knees, late-night fevers, college applications, job interviews, wedding speeches, all of it. And yet, in the moment when I needed them most, not one of them could be bothered to show up.
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