When I lost my baby at nineteen weeks, I believed I had reached the deepest point of pain a person could survive. Grief settled into my body slowly, like a fog that refused to lift, turning every movement into effort and every breath into work. I mourned not only the child I would never hold, but the future I had already begun to imagine in quiet moments—names whispered to myself, tiny clothes folded away, a life rearranged around love that had nowhere to go. Camden, my husband, was supposed to be my anchor through that darkness. He had always been calm and dependable, the kind of man you choose when you’re tired of chaos and ready for stability. I clung to that belief even as he cried briefly, held me once, and then retreated into silence. He stopped talking about the baby entirely, as if erasing the loss might make it less real. At night, he turned his back to me in bed, creating a physical distance that mirrored the emotional one growing between us. I was drowning in grief while he quietly slipped away, and I was too broken to realize that something far worse than abandonment was already unfolding behind my back. Continue reading…
